Controlling My Emotions
Am i even worthy of love? Am i even worthy of a companion? Someone to put up with my shit for the rest of their lives? Today is not a good mental day. I've been following this page on Instagram about ADHD, and have been learning so much more about it and myself. For instance, Rumination . It means to ponder or "chew on something, usually negative experiences. It's redrived from what a cow does when it regurgitates its food to chew on it again *BARF*. So for me, at least, I usually experience this with negative experiences or negative situations that haven't happened yet. Well today i guess i woke up in a bad mood (i didn't feel like i did), and when we left from the gym and got gas, i was just standing there with disgust on my face. I had an attitude, R would try and talk to me, give me a kiss, kept touching me with his sweaty sleeve.. i was just not having it. Then i came home and proceeded to cook my breakfast, i started the dishwasher knowing that with it runni...