My love/hate relationship with ADHD

 Let me start by saying i am a Christian. I was raised Christian, and brought up in a Presbyterian church. I participated in many mission trips (mostly to the same place), i rang hand bells and chimes, i was in the youth groups (which felt like daycare honestly) where we'd sing and dance, and get a prize at the end. I found my life long, bestest friend at this church. And everyone knew me, i knew just about everyone else too, it was small. We would say Grace at dinner about 80% of the time, ya know, "God is great, God is good, and we thank him..." And we (my brothers and i) would practically demand "Lay Me" before bed every night with our mom, "Now i lay me, down to sleep..." But i have always questioned my faith. When you're a kid in a church on Sunday, you stand there with the hymnal and sing along with your parents, but you don't really know what it is you're singing. When i was younger (too big for nursery but too small for youth group)...

 WOW. i just read what i wrote back in September, and i come back almost a year later. Did you miss me? I kept telling myself i need to get back to blogging; it really helped me cope with internal thoughts and feelings. The daily life of one with ADHD is always a struggle. Let's quickly update you since last September: March 16th, 2020, My boyfriend and i were sitting at a long rectangle table, signing the papers to our NEW HOUSE!!! Yes, we bought a house and i am so excited and proud of us! It's a nice little 3bed, 2bath house with an unfinished basement, and plenty of fun upgrading projects. When the basement is finished, it will be a 4bed, 3bath (well oddly, the 3rd bath is actually finished down there, but that's it). On top of the house, let's go ahead and add the fact that we are in the middle of a PANDEMIC right about now. Yup, good ole COVID-19; the virus that spread from China to all over the globe. The week we signed the papers, the country was slowly shutting...