Therapy session
Well today, not much has happened. I haven't taken my medicine for a while and I'm still not. I'd say I'm still in the rebelling mindset. I have a full bottle, ready when I need it, but I don't want to. I had a test today that I frantically studied for, and it was unbelievably, ridiculously, and unnecessarily difficult and took up the whole hour and 30 minutes and I still did not answer a couple questions. BUT... oh well, I did my best! Anyway, even though Tuesdays are my longest days this semester, I feel I can keep myself awake and focused. But when I can't seem to handle myself, I have a friend here on campus I can talk to and for privacy, I'll just call her H.
She works in the disability office here on campus. Who knew college had resources that assisted those with disabilities?! I mean, I figured they assisted people with physical disabilities and such, but nothing like ADHD; because I thought no one looked at ADHD as a serious mental disorder, just like most people don't now. Back home, my mom would be the one to help me with homework; starting papers, other tedious assignments, and helping me stay organized with the assignments. While I still send my mom some assignments and ask her for help, I take most assignments I find difficult to H. It helps that she is here in person and can look at the assignments with me and help me get my thoughts organized. And if I don't have any homework to do, but I'm having a hard time handling life or a weird situation, I can always go talk to her, like a therapy session. My mom is always my go to, but it helps to talk to various people about certain struggles; get their advice if I need it. In fact, when coming back from summer break, I had to make an appointment ASAP with H so I could tell her about my summer and how my first week back at school has been, as far as classes, social situations, my relationship, and even how my brother is taking his first week of his freshman year here at Frostburg. I forgot to mention I got a job on campus this year. It's at the IT Help desk, helping people with their computer issues, learning more about things in my field of study. It keeps me busy; I only work 12 hours a week (in a span of only 2 days) but it got me involved and I've met even more beautiful people.
Anyway, it's nice to know there are people in my corner. I would feel so alone. And how uncontrollably emotional I would get and not know what was causing it would freak me out; make me feel like I'm going crazy. I hate using ADHD as an excuse. But I read somewhere that it's not an excuse, it's an explanation. And once I figured out being emotional could be contributed by the ADHD, that explained it all. I had answers. Now, I just have to figure out how to control it.
She works in the disability office here on campus. Who knew college had resources that assisted those with disabilities?! I mean, I figured they assisted people with physical disabilities and such, but nothing like ADHD; because I thought no one looked at ADHD as a serious mental disorder, just like most people don't now. Back home, my mom would be the one to help me with homework; starting papers, other tedious assignments, and helping me stay organized with the assignments. While I still send my mom some assignments and ask her for help, I take most assignments I find difficult to H. It helps that she is here in person and can look at the assignments with me and help me get my thoughts organized. And if I don't have any homework to do, but I'm having a hard time handling life or a weird situation, I can always go talk to her, like a therapy session. My mom is always my go to, but it helps to talk to various people about certain struggles; get their advice if I need it. In fact, when coming back from summer break, I had to make an appointment ASAP with H so I could tell her about my summer and how my first week back at school has been, as far as classes, social situations, my relationship, and even how my brother is taking his first week of his freshman year here at Frostburg. I forgot to mention I got a job on campus this year. It's at the IT Help desk, helping people with their computer issues, learning more about things in my field of study. It keeps me busy; I only work 12 hours a week (in a span of only 2 days) but it got me involved and I've met even more beautiful people.
Anyway, it's nice to know there are people in my corner. I would feel so alone. And how uncontrollably emotional I would get and not know what was causing it would freak me out; make me feel like I'm going crazy. I hate using ADHD as an excuse. But I read somewhere that it's not an excuse, it's an explanation. And once I figured out being emotional could be contributed by the ADHD, that explained it all. I had answers. Now, I just have to figure out how to control it.
I know you don't like to take your meds, but think of them like glasses (or better, contacts)...its a tool that helps you focus and think (see) more clearly so that you can give 100% effort and achieve the best result possible. Sure, the contacts can bother your eyes, but if you only use them when you NEED to (like for tests...) you'll KNOW that you gave it your all. Still, very proud of you and all that you have overcome thus far. I'm glad you have H, and I'm super glad that you are branching out and getting more involved in campus life...How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time...
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