Finals week

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I haven't posted in a few weeks but fast forward to the end of the semester... Its finals week.

As I'm laying in bed, I'm thinking about my day, contemplating all the conversations I had today. I remember talking to many different people about how they study and how they prepare for their finals and/or final projects/assignments that are due prior. Everyone is talking about how they have to stay up all night, til 3 in the morning, sometimes until the sun comes up. How much coffee do I need to stay up? How many trips to Starbucks will I make before I finally hit the sheets? I'm thinking to myself.. How in the WORLD can you be spitting fresh ideas at 4 O'Clock in the morning?!? My brain won't allow me to proceed on once I get distracted, and that's during normal day time hours! Plus, I need my sleep.

I start comparing my study habits to others': why am I not buried in my books? Am I studying enough? Should I feel guilty for laying in my bed right now as I type this entry? Am I not going to get a good enough grade if I'm not up all night studying? Then I think, I know why I'm not like them... Because of my ADHD. I can't process information right away, and I know how my study skills are already. I manage to keep myself focused for about an hour, 2 hours if I really have to get the work done. But once I get bored, restless, fidgety, whatever, there's no going back. My test taking isn't the best so I know if I stress myself out with all that studying, I'm not going to retain anything, and it will actually decrease my test taking even more. So the way I look at it is I study as much as I can (time wise, not the amount of content), go into my final feeling confident, look at the final and immediately feel defeated (lol as most of us students do), and try my best; give it my all! Now I wouldn't say I strive for C's, but that is all I need to pass the classes for my major. So if I got a C, I would be okay. But my grades are in the low A's to low B's in all my classes, so I'm feeling alright. All I have to do is study well and just, basically, get it over with.

So, with that being said, I'm not bashing anyone's study habits; what works for you, works for you, and I hope you get the grades you want. I just needed to clarify to myself that even though I'm not like everyone else, even though I'm not staying up until dawn writing papers, I'm still going to get the job done! And I will be successful :)

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